Sometimes Days like these....

Sometimes Days like these Just.... suck.

Where Every Memory or Feeling you've ever had comes flooding back for no reason at all.

Makes you the same kind of homesick you've just gotten over..

The kind of feeling that you almost suffocate from because your aching for comfort.. and when you think of the things or people that would comfort you, they are the things and the people you miss the most. They are part of those memories...making you hurt even more..wanting everything you didn't have. Then scolding yourself because in Reality your actually very fortunate and many people would have never had these sorts opportunities, as i have. That's when you gotta start thinking of all the blessings you have, the friends you have made and the memories you have created and are Creating, later in life you'll be craving those all the same..

this all comes down to change.

which is a good thing... but can hurt like nothing else. yet its the thing i crave the most, and also brings Pain with the good, something that you never truly can overcome...

This also comes down to keeping yourself busy and putting your focus on the things that really matter. helping your family, friends and people you love with actual help or even just being there for  them... which in the end makes you feel better all the same.. its true laughter is the best medicine..

change is good. you just need to see the best in it make the best of it. I wish I could have seen that when I was younger I would have spent more time making more memories than craving change or dwelling on the hurt. Change will come when its time to come. So Until then enjoy it because every moment you have & minute that goes by, you can't get back. Sure there'll be bad days and days when you feel like you just shattered, when you feel the band-aid on your heart has just been ripped off full force by some macho Sumo Wrestler...basically you'll feel dead...

but if having that feeling once in a while (taking in the bad with the good) Makes you see your blessings and Enjoy what you have then its worth it..dwell on the good rather than the bad. if you don't you just make life hard. Count Your Many Blessings.. i always hated that song ( no offense song writer) but i actually understand the meaning of that now.. more than i ever did..

I'm so thankful for the life I've had. 

The Things I've learned

The Person who I've Become and who I'm Trying to be.

The Blessings i've Recieved, even if I don't think I deserve them

I'm Thankful for all the people who have been in my life and who are still in my life.

Mainly my Family and My Closest Friends. Syd, Elvira..

you have no idea how much the good times we had/have gets me through tough times.

If I didn't have you to lean on, i don't know what i would be doing..

I'm also thankful for my friends that I've grown apart from.. that helped shape me, ..sure it hurts that it's happened but it just makes me value the times we had even more. but there is a reason why you didn't make it to my future. But thank you for being there for me when you were know i still care about you..

So rather than focusing on the bad in this Entry like i have continually in the past, I'm Determined to see the good from now on. there's no point in hurting even if you have a reason. sure being sad for a little while is ok its healthy it makes you see clearer when things get better. it makes you realize the blessings you have. but don't Sit there and Dwell on it. Make the Best Memories you can!

So Basically .. 

* Everything In Life Changes You In Someway. Even The Smallest Things

If You Do Not Accept These Changes, You Do Not Accept Yourself.

For Through These Changes Brings New & Greater Things To You.

Making You Wiser As Time Progresses.To Avoid These Changes Is A Loss.

You Only Live Life Once. 

Do Not Waste A Minute Of It Avoiding Things let Them Come To You And Learn From Them.

There Is Always Tomorrow. *

Life is Great.

--Love Lizzie