1.) that I want my education, 2.) I want to experience new things, and get to know the other half of me (american half..) 3.) I want to be closer to my family.. Those were the main reasons I gave her. I explained about the schooling that I don't feel like going through all the drama and the way I'm treated here..why be a part of that when I can go somewhere where I wont be treated like dirt? Ok I didn't say that word for word. but something like that... it a lot to just go up and flat out say my decision... I know that it is hard for her, and the kids especially to have a different nanny every time.. but I need to live my life also. maybe that is very selfish i don't know... I had to convince myself, even though this is kind of harsh thinking, but I had to keep saying to myself, ''they're choosing to have nannies''..so that I could work up the nerve to go and tell her.. anyway I just thought I would let everyone know I finally got up the nerve to tell them flat out my decision instead of beating around the bush tryin to get to the point..
anyway.. I'm really gonna miss this family, they're really great, and the boys are so much fun..
but I need to get a foundation on my future. something solid to fall back on.
she asked me not to tell the boys until the time is close, so I wont..
anyway I'm gonna go clean my room or go back to sleep lol..
--Lizzie
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