Good news :D

So yesterday around 5:30 p.m. my sister gets a call on her phone, turns out it's actually for me, and it's the man who gave the GED and he told me he was calling to let me know the results of my GED test, he said he has the pleasure of telling me that i have passed GED TEST!!! :D

I was SOOO excited! i got off the phone and i was Crying! I've been waiting for this for years! i can't believe i actually got it! this opens so many windows for me! i can study what i want to study now there are so many things i can do now, now that i have it!

I'm so excited :D

I'm so happy I could get my GED even last minute! the tests and everything! I couldn't have even done anything without the help of Cathy Butler and Matt Davis. seriously, they are two amazing people! I'm so grateful for them! I got to give them a call today and let them know :D And of course Londa helping me with my Math :).

ANyway so today is my actual Real last day in the States. I fly back out tomorrow.
It's been fun out here i've enjoyed it. it's definitely been worth it :D
it'll also be nice to be back and have a fresh start in everything with the New year and all :D I'm excited to start work again and see the Family I work for :)

I hope you all have a Happy NEw YEAr!!

Love lizzie :D

Catching up :)

So it's been way to long for me not to write anything, and as much as I put it off, I know I have to update it later. The news just keeps building up. I may have forgot a lot of it though so your in luck haha.. Anyway, so I'm back in the United States, Actually my trip is almost over, I have been here almost three months, time has gone by Fast!

Fall was Beautiful here! I never seen anything like it! It was awesome seeing all the leaves, I LOVE Fall. Now it's finally starting to feel like winter though :) Which I also love, cause I can wear my gloves and scarves. :)

Being out here I have Gotten a lot of things done, and I Wouldn't have been able to do it without Yolanda's help, so i'm really grateful for her! We have done a lot. We first got me a New Social Security card, which I needed to get my Drivers License, and my Voter Registration (also needed) that actually took the longest. We opened up an American Bank account for me here. It proves to be pretty handy :) I'm learning how to Balance a checkbook, after many attempts and messing it up all the time, I think I finally got the hang of it. :)

We went in to the DMV to see what I needed to get my license, (haha so many adventures in the DMV.) we walk in, Londa thinks she sees a cop she knows, ''Hey i think that's-- only he's black.. and not him...'' haha,that made me laugh. Later were standin in line, and there were just a few people ahead of us at this point, when this elderly lady fell in front of us, she just kinda fainted I guess. She had been standing to long, it was pretty sad..Londa Offered her leg as a pillow, which was nice. OH lol and Some other random lady in line kept callin out ''whats her name? whats her name?''over and over again, LOL in the car londa was like '' WHY do you want to check her credit? HAHAHA that cracked me up I was laughin, i still am haha. After finding out what we all needed we waited for what felt like FOREVER for my SS card and Voter Registration.

All this while, applying for my SS card and stuff, i've been Observing Americans '' In their Natural Habitat'' as londa likes to say hahaha, I gotta say, I love American humor. it's Mostly Sarcasm, it makes me laugh- its so..Creative lol. lol --Who knew? haha.

through noticing this, i've learned that i like observing people, and cultures. okay not like Stalker observe, but its just so Different from other places i've been. It's so intriguing how people act and the what culture they're from that has helped shape their personalities...

Anywho--

On the 29th of October I got to take the Assessment, placement test for my GED which is usually a 3 step or more process, depending on what level your on. At the beginning of the Test the Teacher guy was like ''okay your going to take a short little test first, this decides which book you get-- the Purple or the Green one. The purple book is if your stupid and the Green isn't.'' lol okay he didn't say it like that, but he did say that the purple one was for the uneducated. LOL. no joke.

anyway-- he was great haha :) So honest. LOL.. Oh and in case your wondering-- I got the green book-- no worries haha. It kinda surprised me and caught me off guard I was totally expecting the Purple one. Considering I haven't been to a school teaching general education since 8th grade. It felt so good being in a classroom again. It's a good Feeling to know I'm not stupid LOL. My scores on that test were all high except for my Math but as a whole, I was Just off not being able to take the Official Practice test which is one of the steps leading up to the GED. i'd have to take some Classes and learn some Math (which was my weak point in the test.)

We didn't figure that out until I called every Testing center in Delaware asking if I could go take the official test, we were told that I have to take the Practice test first, and the results will come in in a few weeks after that, then I could take an official test if I passed it. (Which official tests are only once a month by the way) After figuring that out, I was told I can't even take the Practice test because my scores were off.. which actually made me feel really sad.. So this lady Cathy butler she gave me the number of a Matt Davis and me thinking ''yeah, i have no time left to even try to get this..'' i figured i'd call cuz she said Matt could help me out online.

TURNS OUT, Matt Davis is an Amazing person! He has Totally gone outta his way to help me. He scheduled a practice test the same week, for me to take, based on if i would pass it-- Great! -- if not-- what was the harm in trying. Which totally brought my spirits and hope back.

Yesterday Londa brought me down to Dover to take the Practice test. LOL k so0000 we're driving around trying to find the building and we pass this one Eerie building, which we though might could be it, haha she drives right passes it and is like ''that's not it'' not in the she knew it wasn't it, kind of way but a ''if that's it, your not going in there.'' Kind of way and takes another turn, haha, luckily enough that wasn't it. BUT the building it was in was creepy as well. After gettin buzzed in the sign says : '' Adult Education Door to the Far right'' well there were three doors, on the far right. So the first was locked, the second was open, revealing a staircase, which we decide to walk up, almost reaching the top Yolanda was like '' uhh.. GO DOWN! GO Down, go down! '' haha so this building was kinda creepy. We walk out through that door again and go stand by the elevator; when the last door on the right opens and a lady was like come on in! lol so yeah this 4 hour test, ended up being like.. 5.. and a half because we were discussing the options and stuff.

Anyway, Matt is a Great person, he does his Job extremely well. Anyway long story short I ended up passing everything Except my math but get this- by ONE question.

SOOOO Matt and I we talked about what we could do and we both wanted to be honest not like just erase a question and have him tell me the right answer and cheat, So we talked about coming back on Monday and retaking that section, Anyway longer story short, we figured it out eventually how to do it Honestly And I Ended up passing the math that time. :) I found out He stayed after work for me and everything just so I could take this test, (there were other people stayin after for their work too.) I'm SOOO grateful for him. He's such a good person! Seriously without him I would not even have had another opportunity this trip to get my GE Diploma. He Helped me out SOOO much. He gave me some numbers to call so i could take the Official test next week :)

I just called the Stanton campus I kept getting the answering machine, and Marshalton, I called and the lady wasn't there, so I called the front desk, she said that she still sees the book on the lady's desk so she assumes there are places left and to come sign up on Monday for the Official test for the 16th and 17th (it's split in half) at 5:30 p.m. both days. But since she ''assumes'' there are places left, I'm still going to keep calling Stanton just in case :). I'm really SO excited though to Go for this test! And so thankful I called that number just in time! so That's where I am now Education Wise.

AND -Now that I've had my Drivers Permit already for a couple weeks :D

I think I'll be taking my Drivers Test, not the written but the driving part, on Tuesday :) Which will be awesome, and I SOO hope i pass.. if not I think I have to wait like 10 days.. or something which would mean Right after we get back from California. I've waited for my license for YEARS I'm so glad I finally get the chance to get it now!

AND --To update you on all the past events,

October/Beginning of November --

There was a YSA Halloween Dance, I Dressed up as Mother Nature, it was really fun making the costume.Londa helped me with ideas and the face paint :) Dances here are so different than the ones I'm used to in The Netherlands, I forgot that here, they just kind of, move in circles.., where as in Holland, they Dance, like Real dance..It was still a fun experience though. but I do appreciate the dances back home more now. :)

Then on Actual Halloween we took Nicolai Trick or treating, he was a Lion, and Such a cutie!

After the Dance, but before Halloween around that time if I remember right There was this Murder Mystery activity at President Winn's house, I got there late but it was still really fun to see and dress up for :) I Enjoyed being there:)

OH Londa had me watch Boondock Saints, and it was -AMAZING-, then later we went and saw Boondock saints II which was also really REALLY good!!!!!! I'm gonna own both of those movies next time I see them in the store :D I'm definitely going to Ireland in the Near future, even if it's just for the accents alone!!

Another movie I went and Saw, was New Moon. I Saw it with Heather, Mike, and Joshua. :) it was Actually Pretty Good!! we had fun, and did Wii bowling at Mikes house before the movie. Anyway I'm gonna see it again when I get the chance to. haha last year I saw Twilight with Christina Twice in Scotland, Now i'm in the U.S. for New moon, Who knows where i'll be for Eclipse haha :P

Thanksgiving:

Thanksgiving was Awesome, its the first time in a long time I actually felt a holiday again. it truly felt like Thanksgiving, we watched the Macy's parade, and Nicole and Nicolai came :) LOL and after eating so much-- Laughing-- NOT a good idea, it HURT SO BAD to laugh I thought my chest bone was gonna break. I was Crying and laughing at the same time because it hurt so bad lol. :) OH and (not that I should be proud of this) I ate two pumpkin pies. ... by myself.. lol.. it was SO good though, so worth it.. lol but i probably should never do that again though.

Black Friday:

The next day Londa and I got up at 3:00 a.m. and went shopping on Black Friday which was REALLY fun!!! I loved it. we went to Khols, toys 'r us, Target,and best buy stopped and got some Dunkin donut's hot chocolate which is THE BEST HOT CHOCOLATE IN THE WORLD. And i'm not joking. Anyway at target I bought all the first 3 seasons of ''Supernatural'' (the 4th at best buy though) Cuz they were on sale :) ANd a Disney Scene-it LOL. The last one in the whole store.hahaha it's funny story, you'll have to ask if your curious. hahaha good times lol..

we are so hooked to Supernatural now. I love it. :D. We ended up watching all 4 seasons that whole next week LOL. it was Really fun :) it was sad when it got over though.. and we still need to watch up to Episode 10 on Season 5 now.. but yeah it was Great :D

Last weekend we went to Dover, and saw the Beach IN THE MIDDLE of a Storm. LOL no joke, it was snowing up in Wilmington and everything! it was SOOOOOOO COLD but REALLY fun :)

Now We're are gettin' ready to go to California next week. I'm really excited for that :D

I'm glad I came out here :)
I've been learning SOO much, its just crazy, and not just like school kind of learning i've also learned a lot about myself, I realized what I can do and need to do to make myself a better person. I've also Learned to value my friends so much more than I ever did before -- okay that sounds bad, because I did value my friends before, but now even more so. all of my friends. :)

Not just that but I've learned a lot of personal things too. Emotionally and Spiritually.

some other things i've realized here are :

• The singles ward/ ysa in general in the U.S. is Competitive. its CRAZY where as in Holland, everyone can just be friends. there's no '' I'm gonna strangle you if I get the chance'' vibes goin on. lol this makes me Appreciate home even more. Since I've been here, I've met some fun people and made some new friends here, been on a couple dates and a double date. Which again is so different than at home. But it's been really fun, i've enjoyed it :)
  
  
• Words that sound similar in Dutch & English, are in fact, Not the same LOL. No one understands what I mean when I can't remember the English word for something.
  
  
• How awesome is it that I got an opportunity to learn another language? I can't believe I'm Actually looking forward to speaking dutch when I get back to Holland. I Never expected that. I actually feel like working on it and try to perfect it. :)
  
  
• I NEED to travel. it's in my blood I can't help it. This is the start of some Amazing Adventures :)
  
• I'm really excited that its the Christmas Season again :).
  speaking of Christmas, thinking back on Last Christmas in Scotland, I can't help but laugh and smile.(haha those were some Good times Abeth)! OH I'm really excited to go see the Washington D.C. Temple, with it's Christmas lights Tomorrow night! The Ysa relief Society is goin', I'm really looking forward to that!!

Man, I feel so grateful for so many things lately.. I'm mostly greatful for the love God has for me which i've seen more than before by being out here. It's comforting to know that if accidentally mess up or feel burdened, he's always there to take those heavy feelings away as long as I'm willing to come to him with them. I'm amazed with how he works with me to make my weaknesses into strengths.

Anyway, I'll probably blog again when I get back home to The Netherlands.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Studies health and other fun things.

Alright, so i've been looking at the practice tests, for my GED. And well okay the math is kind of Difficult.. I taught myself how to subtract %'s. Good thing, 'cause then I can find out how much something will cost when I go shopping haha.. I also looked up the GED test taking place closest to my sisters house; it's even in Wilmington itself, so thats good. I'm trying to practice dividing and multiplying fractions as much as I can. I kind of wish I had some worksheets to do; then give them to someone to check if they're right. but oh well. I was surprised that in the intermediate grammar, or whatever its called on the practice test; i actually got all of those right. :) But the Grammar in general I need to work on, it looks like its easy to learn so thats good, I kinda learned a bit already just by checking the answers on the answer sheet; seeing how it's really supposed to be said. Oh and i've also been giving myself words haha. So I can broaden my vocabulary.

Words i've learned so far:

Blase-- Bored as a result of having experienced many pleasures.

Ostracize-- To Exclude from a group, to banish..

Inevitable-- Unable to Avoid, to be escaped

Frivolous-- not very important, not worth of serious attention

Plausible-- Reasonable, Appearing true

Thats as far as i've gotten. Even though I made one for everyday, until i fly out to the states.

My word for today is: Eloquent-- I haven't memorized this yet, but it means having or exercising the power of fluent forceful and appropriate speech. You probably already know that though haha.

I also made flash-cards with drivers signs on them haha. I kinda know all those, but the lights with like 4 lights; making the shape of a square then the one light on top- yeah those are a little more difficult to understand. But I'm sure if I would have printed the manual in color I would get it. Londa said she'll explain that to me when I'm m out there, so I'm not worried. Oh and I just decided I'm gonna go through this blog when I'm done, try to fix all my misspelled words; and put in some punctuation .:)

So I had my Relief Society lesson yesterday. It went okay. I didn't prepare for it but I did that on purpose. For some reason I can teach better that way I guess. Well I was prepared, but I didn't have a whole lesson planned out step my step. I did write down some questions and all, so i was little prepared. Anyway I hope it went alright, people thanked me for it afterwards.. haha half of me believes some of them were just being polite. But I feel that for my first lesson ever given inside church, it wasn't bad :) I enjoy teaching, its so fun! You can express your enthusiasm for things. And hopefully the others will feel more motivated, and just as enthusiastic as you are. Which creates a more pleasant atmosphere, and stronger friendship between each-other. :)

So another thing I learned while I was studying something about repentance. I learned that If we follow Christ, if we choose to follow him; whither we like it or not; we're gonna change. it's just part of it. If you follow him your automatically going to become a better person. It's like a force you can't control. if you follow him, the fact that your going to accomplish your goals is Inevitable ( lol yay for my new word! ). Thats just how it is. Who wouldn't want to accomplish their goals? Well I was thinking about that, and it would be a harder step than I would have expected. That changing my habits and behavior, following christ would lead me to completing my goals. At the time that realized that it was a scary thought. Knowing I would change, my perspective on things would change, but the more I thought about it and its taken a few days- i ran this process through my head, thinking, who wants to remain in a state of pessimism? and negativity? I realized then that: Pessimism is a sign that you do not truly desire to change and reach your goals. alright well thats a bad thing I thought.. And I wondered why I felt kinda nervous about knowing the fact that continuing to follow christ would change me change my outlook on life, make me a more optimistic person. I noticed that it was because I have this Comfort zone; that I've been in for the longest time, granted its not the worst zone, and I've learned a lot in that area of state of being, of mind. But that since I have a hard time changing my comfort zone, I have a hard time changing.

But I've learned that Change is Essential. And I need to include that in my Comfort zone, or just let go of my comfort zone all together. Haven't decided which yet, but through either one of those; If I want to reach my goals; follow who I desire to follow; I need to accept that I need to change, and just do it! I need to change my Pessimism into Optimism, Negativity in to Positivity and through the power that that gives, it lets me follow, and do that which is inevitable. (change for the better) and Enjoy the fruit that comes from Changing and being a better person.

-Becoming a better person, a clear seeing, open, path set, positive person, is just unavoidable if you follow christ. lol whether you like it or not. LOL. just how it is. So thats what I learned lol its quite a big step, but being in such a doubtful comfort zone in the first place isn't healthy, I can see why we change for the better when doing our best to follow, because it will make us happy, and God wants us to be happy. So thats how its gonna be :) .. haha it's kinda funny but its a pretty secure promise lol.

anyway, I've chosen to change my comfort zone.

hmm about health. Well I haven't been running but I have been drinking bucket-loads of water! I seem to have more energy, and my kidney doesn't hurt as bad :) Granted I have to go to the bathroom every 10 minutes, but thats okay :) I've been drinking about 4 liters a day, I noticed this weekend that it got rid of bloatiness and I did lose quite a bit of weight just by drinking enough this past week- just have to burn the stuff off thats left there now lol.. maybe that makes no sense trying to explain.. lol

Oh' and my History book I'm reading, ''tried by war'' it's gotten a lot more interesting, it was pretty boring.. but now its pretty interesting. I hope I'll finish it soon.

I'm excited to fly! I went in the airport a couple weeks ago to meet Veronica when she came out of the door from the baggage pick up area. I love airports :). I even got that nervous feeling again before I fly and I wasn't even flying haha :P it's was pretty fun..lol

Well I think thats about it. gonna go through and punctuate things now lol

-love Lizzie

the Opposite of boring...i guess.

So Just thought i would Let everyone know Exactly what's gonna happen so that ya'll can stop asking me 80,000 times when i leave and how long im going for :D I am flyin out the 7th of October with a layover in London, then i fly into Philidelphia.. i fly out of philidelphia on the 31st of December.. hopefully with a license and a GED.. and another suitcase full of Awesome stuff.. lol...

It's been a while since i last blogged.. hmm.. Jovo camp was interesting.. fun.. lol...

Since then i've been getting back into the working mode.. not much going on OH the boys are trying to be good so they can have a dog LOL half of me hopes they will be because i kinda want a dog.. granted the hound would not be mine. that doesn't matter its still a dog.. i've kinda been wanting a dog since marley and me lol.. the movie.. i dont know a marley.

oh and i have to give the relief society lesson this sunday in A'dam.. hope that goes well..

Oh and Michelle and Ryan made these awesome mario flower things,.. i think they could really start something, seriously. i made a request for something already lol they should start a business.. :)

hmm .. what else is going on.. oh i swear i drank like 5 gallons of liquid. .. yeah i have to pee constantly.. awesome. it all started with a liter of O.J. yesterday..

you probably don't want to know that. Truth is, i have no idea what to write about anymore..

so i am Asking for Ideas from all of you what do you think i should write about.. that would be the opposite of boring. lol..

anyway im gonna go and study some Abraham lincoln history stuff.. .. lol awesome..

What else.. oh i bought a Dean Martin CD. heck yes it rocks!

okay im gonna go, Give me your ideas of what i should write about!

love lizzie

This one Manly Ad i Saw

LOL ok i was laughing at this lol! but it is pretty true i just think its hilarious they have to write it down for some men to KNOW how to be a man LOL.. just thought i'd share:

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Motivated!

Wow, something happened and I'm sure this is my turning point, i dunno it just all of a sudden hit me like a rock in the FACE. I want to be Fit and its now or never :) i dont think i've ever been this motivated about something like this, anyway so, I decided I'm not going to look at my Progress Negatively because its still progress no matter how slow it goes. i already worked up to running the mile again haha.. i really want to work up to 5 miles after each other :) THAT would be way fun oh and good news my legs didn't about kill me this time, Michelle's right  the Red track is way better for running that cement. Anyway Thijs wants to run with me tonight haha its so cute, he can run a half a mile with me and then cuz he's so little he takes a break and lets me run the other two :) so if i do that tonight with him again that will mean i've ran two today.. not after each other but still its pretty good for the weight loss becoming fit thing anyway im gonna go shower and get ready to go with the sisters :D

change of plans

k so it turns out going to costa rica isn't gonna work out. which sucks. so im gonna save to go visit utah or something instead or take a rain check on the 10 days or whatever. or save up and get a car. anyway im not so much in the mood to write anything. so..

Fed up lol.

Thats it. I dont care anymore. I will go running, I dont even care if my legs will be in agony afterwards.  I miss running so im gonna do it. again. I want to be healthy so..

anyway just thought i'd let you know im fed up with my leg pain whatever and im just gonna do what I want to do regardless.

Dont know how to title this..

So my MRI results came back, or ok they didn't because there was nothing wrong, they didn't find anything, and so the neurologist called me and told me everything was completely normal, and that now we just need to wait... i was like.. foooorrr.... what? and he didn't have an answer so he said '' i'll uh.. write a letter to your doctor'' .. yeah, oh well i can handle the pain in my leg so its not a big deal besides it does go away sometimes. like right now i dont feel anything wrong with my leg of course i just woke up.

anyway i just thought i'd let ya know..

im gonna go get dressed and ready.

---Lizzie

Waiting for my MRI results..and just stuff

still 29 minutes till the doctor should call me.. I'm more curious than anything else..with an edge of nervousness, im sure nothings wrong though. even if there is its probably not that bad...

anyway Wisse is hope from school today he hit his head on a pole in gym yesterday and still has a massive headache, and im gonna pack to go to Den Bosch tonight. I'll be back tomorrow afternoon because of the Wijk BBQ, and because OH i forgot to say something about this, i got another callin in church, im now called in the Nursery.. ( as if im not around kids enough LOL.. ) nah toddlers and such are really cute so i don't mind :) anyway i'll post up what the doctor says after he calls..

--Lizzie

an addition:

lol ok when i say ''answers'' i can't refuse i ment Offers. Second, when i get my GED in the States in that time will equal me to be able to get on a higher Niveau here! and that gives me more Education options AND more intelligent nicer people to work with :D AND i will be able to drive :D which means getting a license here would be Easier after 6 months until its invalid here.

ok thats about it..

lol

bye

The Offer I Cannot Refuse LOL

Soooo, 

          as you know I'm Planning on Going to America on the 7th of October, but most of you probably didn't know I bought a Return ticket for the 31st of December. well anyway i probably mentioned before that my Bosses want me to stay and were trying to convince me and Michelle was right. they started giving Answers i can't Refuse! like Letting me still go to America from October until December, While still paying me every week while I'm there. And paying for my Ticket. and if that isn't AWesome Enough, they are also Letting me go on a Trip for Patch Adams to Costa Rica!!!! Granted I was planning on going to the Romanian one first because it would be really cool with Family History, but Patch wouldn't be joining that trip, and they have ones going to Romania every year sometimes twice a year, but Patch doesn't always go on the trips, so this one felt really really good and awesome. and Heck i just looked up how much it would be to go to Romania and its like 150 euro and thats in summer. its pretty amazing. anyway Costa Rica in September for a week! in order for me to stay another year and 4 months after i get back from the States. i was like Are you SURE?! so it looks like I'll be Staying in the Netherlands until May 2011, aka My mission :D and what suprises me most is that im SUPER excited about it and it feels SO right. This will be the best year EVER. so September: 10th-17th Costa Rica, August 3rd-8th Jovo Camp Oct. 7th- December 31st America.

It's REALLY awesome. I'm so excited! and the Kids and Heleen and Arjen are too, Fokke gave me a hug too. it was pretty great :) I feel really good knowing where i'll be and not worrying about whats coming because I know :D

ok well any questions just ask me :D

--Love Lizzie

MRI Today

yep at 7:30 p.m... strange time lol, anyway im not as nervous as i was, cuz of the blessing i got. to bad this thing will make me miss Wijk Eten tonight, thats to bad..

LOL oh and i read the other paper that came with the folder, it tells me to bring pajama's or cotton clothes so thats good, i just hope that as the time gets closer i will stay calm or get calmer lol.. maybe i can ask for a sedative or something...im curious if they have the inject me with that highlighter fluid stuff.. i hope i dont have to go all the way into the machine and if i do i hope its feet first.. the machine is only 1 meter long so..and it tells me to bring a CD to listen to or they can put on the radio, but i think i'll bring the CD Sister Owen gave me for my birthday  its the Called to Serve from the Tabernacle choir LOL ok i know its kinda cheesy but usually im not really into the Tabernacle choir at all but this one is surprisingly really good! that and the fact my other cds have gotten kinda old and boring..

oh well i'll let ya know how the MRI went when i get back its in about 10 hours.. 

Love lizzie

The Neurologist

Ok so this morning I went to the Neurologist to see what's up with my leg. When I got there, I went to the Inschrijf Balie. (the write in.. desk.. place) Anyway she was kinda rude, so after that I went upstairs to the Neurology place. a little while later a Doctor came and got me, I dont remember his name, but oh well, making a long story short he did some tests and said he couldn't find anything wrong, ( he's a pretty nice doctor) but that he thinks I could have something wrong with one of my discs or something like that so he set me up an appointment to go and get an MRI this Wednesday as in the day after tomorrow, at 7:30 p.m. so I went to his assistant and got the papers and a appointment reminder thing she was really nice too, and also set up an appointment when the doctor will call me and tell me the results which is on the 29th of may Friday.

so... im kinda nervous about the MRI in the information paper thing about the MRI it says ''U wordt Blootgesteld aan een Krachtige magnetisch veld... '' and so im kinda wondering if that means i dont get any special clothing.. or if that just means that i dont have anything protecting me from the magnetic fields goin on.. seriously though if i dont get to have clothing for that thing im not going.

but i'll ask mom and see if that is just a metaphor of some sort... lol

because i do have clothing without metal.... 

ok well there was a little update of the Doctors today :)

love lizzie :) i'll keep ya updated on wednesday evening too :)

Update

So yesterday i had to give a talk lol, it was pretty awful.. anywho, so i went running today AND on the rowing machine im pretty proud of myself haha.. my bosses are trying to convince me to come back when my return ticket is scheduled for the 31st of december... lol.. what else OH lol hehehehehehe yesterday church was pretty good, besides my talk part lol, but if you wanna know about that just ask me :) oh and i went and saw ''he's just not that into you'' with duco, it was pretty good! i love it! only scarlet johanson is pretty retarded and has issues. i dont like her much. tonight im going to a family home evening with the sisters to this new american family's house. it should be fun :) and tomorrow im going on joint teach with the sisters, wednesday possibly huisbezoek, thursday im cutting/ coloring annika's hair :), and friday, maybe in the midday (or maybe not) will be goin to Angels and Demons aka davinci code 2 with Duco :) then after work is done, take the train to R'dam go to the dance there (which im hoping will not be boring..) then go home, next day have my Barbeque :D SWEET. I am actually cravin hamburgers right now!! then Sunday i am DUN DUN DUN  NINETEEN!  .. and then i have to go back to work.. OH and on the 18th is the Neurologist person for my leg(s) ish thing.. but lately i haven't had many issues with them..  theboys are free the 21st and 22, the 23rd is a Baptism which i plan on going to here in A'dam the 26th i go to Edward and Floor and go start babysitting for them every tuesday from then on. and the 30th is the awesomely awesome ward barbeque :) THAT im lookin forward too.

thats about all i got for ya.. my life is kind of boring so...

oh well. 

love lizzie.

Booked it :)

So I Booked my Flight back to the states for the 7th of October..or rather my dad did lol..

I'm pretty Excited about finally going to get things done that I've wanted to get done for the longest time. I'm also Very excited to get my license LOL... I feel like a giddy little teenager when I think of getting my permit and all that LOL! 

I can't wait to get my GED and know that I have SOMETHING. Granted I still have a lot to learn before I can get it.. I hope I can get it before the end of the year though..

Anyway, so the coming 5 months I'm just going to have to live to the Fullest! Time passes by really fast. 

Ok I need to go and wake up the boys for school.

--Lizzie

Finally.

Ok so last night I Finally told my boss that I'm Moving in October, I just went up to her and said '' so.. I made my decision..'' then told her.. and she was kinda of sad but she understands that I want to get my Education, and start working on my goals. I expected her to try and persuade me to stay but she didn't so I think she kind of knew what I meant when I told her my reasons for going. 

 

1.) that I want my education, 2.) I want to experience new things, and get to know the other half of me (american half..) 3.) I want to be closer to my family.. Those were the main reasons I gave her. I explained about the schooling that I don't feel like going through all the drama and the way I'm treated here..why be a part of that when I can go somewhere where I wont be treated like dirt? Ok I didn't say that word for word. but something like that... it a lot to just go up and flat out say my decision... I know that it is hard for her, and the kids especially to have a different nanny every time.. but I need to live my life also. maybe that is very selfish i don't know... I had to convince myself, even though this is kind of harsh thinking, but I had to keep saying to myself, ''they're choosing to have nannies''..so that I could work up the nerve to go and tell her.. anyway I just thought I would let everyone know I finally got up the nerve to tell them flat out my decision instead of beating around the bush tryin to get to the point..

anyway.. I'm really gonna miss this family, they're really great, and the boys are so much fun..

but I need to get a foundation on my future. something solid to fall back on.

she asked me not to tell the boys until the time is close, so I wont..

anyway I'm gonna go clean my room or go back to sleep lol..

--Lizzie 

The Heart.

no long explanation... 

i just miss home, and im tired of wanting things that i can't have or get back.

I miss bluebell and the times i had there so much..

i know i've been blessed and have had and still do have so many opportunities.. 

but sometimes, i just want simple.. maybe i miss it so much because i can't remember any pain or bad experiences there.. 

and i know that hypothetically speaking if i did return to bluebell. it would be totally different. but would it be home still? 

It's hard being torn between two places that i love. the one that i knew and grew up loving, and the other i grew to love.

I feel like such a baby writing this because its so old and immature maybe...and i don't understand why i miss it so much, why i crave that feeling of home and family so much.

is it because of the crave for change, or is this something really in me. really a part of me.

im sick of being confuzed about my feelings and not knowing where i belong.. i feel so lost..

i know i want my family. and i know that will be extremely good for me (going back), they mean a lot to me. but would all my voids be filled by this? i imagine it could be. by creating stronger bonds, etc...

i hope it could be. i hope it does. I don't like feeling lost, and Out of place.. im afraid of people being dissapointed in me on so many different levels, and that just all adds on to it.. 

i don't even know what to call this all, that feels as if its pileing up, or being put in a storage house, and there's just not enough room anymore. 

Its hard feeling all this. i want it to be enough. it should be enough. 

but there is a reason for everything. maybe this is something i need to live with at this time and find happiness through..

I feel like such a pessimist writing all of this, so negative all the time. 

I do look on the bright side though. i do. how else could i have developed a love for people and life here... but sometimes. it just cracks.

I think im done ranting, 

now that im done, i feel better, and excited to see my family again. i know that my family is the most important thing. and i know it can fill all voids... holes.. dents.. scratches.. i don't know how else to call it. The love of a family, and the love you have for your family, is possibly the best feeling you can ever find. and that love can always grow stronger.

I still feel like a baby though. but hey. i guess we all feel pain sometimes.

anyway im gonna go get back to work, folding laundry etc.

I'm so ready to experience new things :) im really excited for it.

Don't know a title, so i'll use this one

Sooooo, i've lived in holland for 5 years and week.

 

it's pretty strange to think so much time has passed by, so fast, but at times so slow.. 

 

Today im gonna talk with Heleen about America, if there's time.. 

I have to keep convincing myself that this is my decision and no one can make it for me. 

that i need to do this for myself.. 

maybe things will be easier after i tell her what my plans are. 

Man im gonna miss these kids so much, they're such great kids. They make me laugh a lot, they really do feel like little brothers.

Today, Fokke had his Music class presentation and we were workin on this song for him to play on the piano, anyway, the teacher usually doesn't give any higher than 6's as grades, and when i went to bring Fokke his ipod cuz he txted me and asked me if i could, he came out with this big smile, and said, ''so i had music class'',  then i asked him what score he got and he got an 8!!! ITS SO AWESOME. the teacher told him he has real talent, i think that he does too, he seems to remember it all very well and how it needs to be played and he can hear what sounds good and such, he should keep it up :) we were workin on that assignment of his for weeks! im really proud of him! i think i'll buy him some chocolate to celebrate :P

It'll be really strange leaving Europe.. it's become a part of me.. i don't really know anything else.. (besides bluebell etc.) like mom said, i'll be torn between two countries all my life.

6 months to just enjoy the time i have here.. and to stabilize new habits im trying to create, as in a workout schedule, study schedule etc.

ok well im gonna go and get thijs's hockey clothes ready :)

i'll post later how it went.

--lizzie

Marley and Me

MOVIE! it was seriously one of the best movies i have ever seen!!! 

i swear if you don't walk out of the movie wanting to go get a dog of your own there is something wrong with you!!

STRONGLY ADVISED MUST SEE MOVIE! :D

 i love what he says at the end. its so true. anyway Duco and i went and saw it

and now im going to bed. but dang i love  that movie it made a great impression!

Things that make me smile :)

-When wisse brought be tea cuz i was sick, it was soo sweet!, and just his funny remarks

-Thijs, when he asked me if he could go downstairs, and i said, wait for a minute until i get something ( can't remember what it was) and he sits down and then about 5 minutes later he was like '' Elisabeth, it is already 4 minutes geweest''  get it , for a minute, -4 minutes haha it was so cute i just had to laugh and say oh wow your right!

-Thijs, the other day when he felt he had something in his throat pointed to it, and wisse said, '' thats just your apple'' (adam's apple) and thijs looks at him all innocently kind of worried look on his face, and says, but i didn't even eat an apple!

-Seein' the Koppe's yesterday in Church here in A'dam :D

THE SUN! (it's actually shone.. shined.. ? for the past 2 days and 3 countin today :D)

-flowers i bought myself LOL.

-thinking of my future, getting a diploma, license etc. I'm pretty excited.

-The D&C it's actually pretty fun to read. :)

- Fokke and his humor LOL ok, last week, we were putting away groceries, and i ask him to put away these to packets of pasta saus well he's telling me this story at the same time and keeps getting distracted and just sets them down every time after i remind him about it somewhere else in the kitchen instead of just settin them in the pantry, so finally about after the 6th time he got distracted by his story he was tellin me i was like '' oh my heck! lol !'' and pick them up and put them in the pantry myself.  then after laughin about it for a minute i go put away other groceries, and like 10 minutes afterwards,  after all the stuff is put away i was about to go upstairs when i look at the table and on it are the two packets AGAIN!! lol he went back in the pantry and got them out without me noticing, he was laughin pretty hard about it, it was seriously one of the funniest things!! lol! OHH  and then him always wanting to spray his shin guards in my room so that his room wont Stink LOL yeah lots of stuff like that. 

--Sister Highem and Sister Owen! they're my buds they can brighten my day even when i wasn't expecting it! man i love them im gonna cry when sister highem leaves in 4 months.. sister owen still has another year though.

-Subway's. always... i think i'll go there today LOL.

Making a Big Decision

Big decisions can sometimes be Stressful, but this one just seems and feels right.

Lately I've been thinking what I want to do with my life, and at the moment I'm just standing still.. not going out there and living my life to the fullest, completing my goals, sure I mean I'm Developing talents which is also important but I could also be doing that anywhere.

I'm not going into what has made me make this decision or rather consider making it, because that doesn't matter anymore. What matters is me being me to the fullest, if that makes any sense at all. There are so many reasons why I've made this Decision, and when I think of them, they bring me this sense of  understanding, and more complete feeling.. Last year I thought I was moving to the States, but it wasn't time for me yet, and I'm glad I came back last year, because I had the opportunity to grow a stronger testimony, and have become firmer in the church than I ever imagined I could..and also come to know many things I will be able to use in life, that I would have never learned had I moved back to the States last year. And these coming months I have it is nice to know I still have time to prepare myself mentally, and emotionally for this big change. Enjoy the time I have.

I've Decided to move back to the States in end September beginning October. I'm Going to go and stay with my sister Yolanda until she helps me get on my feet. I have to many opportunities coming that I'm more than excited for!!! things that I will regret if I don't take this chance!

I'll be getting my GED, and start taking College classes after that, basic of course. And go on from there. Get my Drivers license also. I'm ready to Make another step in my life, I'm Ready for another change. And if it feels right, and makes me feel more complete and assured knowing i will be fulfilling my goals, I should do it. And I know people will tell me ''well you can do it here'' .. no . I cant. I've tried, there are so many things that hold me back from fulfilling my goals here. preventing me from doing it. And why deal with that when i don't need to?..

Of course I'm going to miss my friends here more than they know. but i convince myself to look at this through an eternal perspective. ..

I Need to do this. 

I can't keep trying to please other people through my decisions, when it is not theirs.

I need to follow what I feel I need to do..

and other reasons are also that .. I need my family.. and I mean sure I have my parents here and I really value that, believe me.. but its not complete.... 

Anyway, so this is my big Decision: Moving back to America, towards the end of the year.

I have thought this through. and prayed about it, and I feel its my decision. it feels right.. believe me if I could I would stay here just to please the people who want me here, heck I would even stay here if my bosses asked me to, because well I'm a softie like that, and I tend to put other peoples wants for me, before my desires for myself.

Like last year at the eye doctor, he asked me if a thing was better the ''1 or 2'' 3 or 4'' bla bla bla, and I said ''yeah that's fine'' while I couldn't see just because I don't know subconsciously I wanted to please him, and not put any burden on him, even though I know its his job even though after Michelle explained what I did I realized how dumb it was, I didn't do it intentionally LOL haha..

...anyway if you want to know that story you'll need to ask Michelle.. 

this time I'm going to do something for me.

Follow my wants.. I'm not going to say '' for once'' because I've had many opportunities to take this and follow my goals, so that would just be ridiculous, but for once I'm not going to be a softie with my own life. I'm not a pushover I don't let people take advantage of me.. if I mind I do stop it when they try. Its just. I don't know maybe it has something to do with being the youngest, everyone always knew what I should do and I would just follow their decisions for me which were great,.. but now that im old enough and see that it is my own decision, I wont be persuaded ( there it is that's the right word) to do what other others think is best for me. I do Appreciate their opinions and their wants for the best for me, I do. but I don't want to constantly have this inner conflict. just let me try...

even now it seems like I'm trying to convince others to let me make my own decision. haha. .. it's Ridiculous..

It's nice to know. this is my life. and my decisions. 

I don't mean to hurt anyone. I love all the people in my life immensely.

but I need to do this. Please respect my decision and don't try and make this harder for me than it already is.. I'm already fighting not to follow what other people think is best for me.. 

Anyway. I'm Excited to take this opportunity. excited to follow my goals..

for once I'm not Scared of Failure. 

You only fail if you stop trying.

--Love, Lizzie.

p.s. no Michelle I haven't told them yet, I'm thinking of an appropriate time to do it this year. like june/july or something.

good things and bad things.

list of GOOD THING about today:

( not in order)

1. I did my nails. and didn't ruin them.

2. the laundry is Done

3. only 3 things to Iron

4. Tomorrow is Friday (aka weekend)

5. I have the Chance to Clean my room

6. Thijs is Having a Friend over after school which means i dont have to go pick him up from anywhere in the rain, from a playdate  :D

7. I have a handy dandy Ipod to play while enduring the freezing cold/rain.

8. the boys have no sports to go to today :D

9. I have time to pack for this weekend :D

List of BAD THINGS about today:

(not in Order)

1. It's Raining

2. It's Freezing.

3. It looks like im pickin wisse and thijs up from school in the rain. 

4. i need to clean my room .. lol

5. ITS RAINING!

6. The String on my Guitar was Broken when i opened the case to play it. :(

7. It's Raining

my point is basically im sick of the rain. i want summer or spring at least anything that is warmer than what it is now.

Anyway, im Addicted to chocolate..  that has got to stop.. no joke. it does. 

so much for losin weight. 

i just stay the same. ok i did lose a little that i didn't get back, but so much for losin any MORE weight.. 

but so far i haven't had any chocolate today.

ugh. rain. 

im 

so

sick 

of 

the rain.

yeah basically i have nothing else.. oh but my bottom brace on my teeth the permanant one that they give you after braces. yeah it snapped in half. i had to get pliars to snap the side of it so it wouldn't stab me in the mouth.. yeah so much for it lastin ''oh 10 -20 years'' 

see as it hasn't even lasted me 5. or even the first year when a piece of the cement of two teeth popped off. 

and my retainer broke, 

10/ 20 years my butt.

anywho im gonna go. 

grr rain makes me pessimistic.

Hard To Describe.

Alright this is the closest i can get to describing how i feel only take out the ''alberta'' and canada parts.. its exactly what i wanted to have as the title of my blog.. the feeling the way this song matches my emotions and feelings i've had for a long time, its so weird.. only this type of feeling, i can't put it into words and therefore not into a title either. The parts that Really emphasize and match what i feel are the parts that are in Bold

anyway-- this might seem ridiculous, but what i feel can't be put into words.

It's about being homesick or anything like that at all. I'm already way beyond that stage. 

It just is like a Fact, you just know it. & it's as much a part of me as anything else.

I know im Blessed. but this is just a Feeling, a Feeling that makes me Feel ''home''.. its really strange.. like i said i can't describe it. but these lyrics are a fraction of how i would describe it if i could.

Paul Brandt -Alberta Bound 

( link is at the bottom under the lyrics if you wanna see the video.)

Sign said 40 miles to Canada

My truck tore across Montana
Ian Tyson sang a lonesome lullaby
And so I cranked up the radio
Cause there's just a little more to go
For I'd cross the border at that Sweet Grass sign
I'm Alberta Bound

This piece of heaven that I've found
Rocky Mountains and black fertile ground
Everything I need beneath that big blue sky
Doesn't matter where I go
This place will always be my home
Yeah I've been Alberta Bound for all my life
And I'll be Alberta Bound until I die

It's a pride that's been passed down to me
Deep as coal mines, wide as farmer's fields
Yeah, I've got independence in my veins
Maybe it's my down-home redneck roots
Or these dusty 'ol Alberta boots
But like a Chinook wind keeps coming back again

I'm Alberta Bound

This piece of heaven that I've found
Rocky Mountains and black fertile ground
Everything I need beneath that big blue sky
Doesn't matter where I go
This place will always be my home
Yeah I've been Alberta Bound for all my life
And I'll be Alberta Bound until I die

like i said take out the Alberta's and Canada's and such and you have a fraction of what i feel. 

its home. its more or a full, complete feeling. i dunno.

Anywho -- Next weekend im Goin to Lindys :D it'll be fun then the Week after that is a Valentines Dance in the Hague the after that i have Vacation a week, and i get to go home and go through some more boxes get rid of a lot of stuff and i'll go for a while to Den Bosch and Visit Elvira so it sounds like a pretty fun month coming up. tomorrow if i can get the Courage up i'll go introduce myself in Sacrament meeting. ...not that i haven't been there for 5 months or anything.. sheesh...

ANywho, im gonna  go clean up my room and OH OH!! 

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!

i finished the Book Of Mormon By myself for the first time in my life.. yeah im pretty excited its definetly one of my favorite books ever!!!

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in the meantime wisse brings me a package that was in the mail from sydni :)

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OH MY GOSH!! i love that girl 

i miss her a lot. haha man she cracks me up!! I cant wait to see her again! even though i dunno when that will be!!! 

it's so strange we've been apart for 5 years and we still are in contact im pretty happy :) 

i hope that she knows that she means a lot to me.

oh wow,  ok now,

 i have to go and check up on the boys!

take care

--Love lizzie

  LINK TO PAUL BRANDT VIDEO

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EtMQeBOguA

Things Changing again.

So once again plans and things are changing like my title for instance, its just based on Memories from things anyway, yeah so my future is kinda changing again, I'm deciding what i want to do with it..

im not ready to tell yet though publicly anyway, the ones closest to me know pretty much already sort of what im kinda plannin. anywho if you know ur close to me but dont ''know'' i havent gotten the chance to tell ya yet..

well change is good i guess im excited for it.

the past two days were pretty depressing for me but like i said im not going into that its not even worth going into anymore. im just done with it.   & i know what i want and need to do now.. so there nothing to explain or reason with anymore.

anyway im so excited about getting and education and learning new things,

speaking of new things i am now in 3rd Nephi.. i think the end of alma and the book of helaman have been my favorite up to this point... anyway its all so good i love captain Moroni, and ofcourse Helaman himself.. and his son Nephi.. i dunno its all really good.. i had to laugh when Capt. Moroni Threatened the government HAHA it was great i was so excited and calling Mom and Elvira just laughing about it telling them about it it made me pretty excited hehe, and then like how the government guy what was his name again? something like with a G anyway he was just all calm answerin back to Moroni's threat, just cuz he knows how Moroni was i guess lol anyway it cracked me up :)

what else.. oh yeah i cant wait for summer.. its like its been winter since october. and i know it will last until july.. so its summer or winter.. you pick. i for one pic summer. 

anyway this Weekend im Going home to my Parents, and well the next morning is  the institute day but i'm debating if i want to go or not i mean it sounds fun and up until like a couple hours ago i didn't feel like going because i just didn't feel like being around people all that much (yeah i know man im anti social) but now im startin to think maybe some fun people who actually might not judge me will be there :) so that might could be fun.. anywho, just stayin home with my parents watchin some movies and stuff sounds just as fun if not funner ( i know i know ''more fun'' ) oh well its a quarter over 10 and im gonna go get in bed and get warm and read some more 3rd Nephi.  :)

Goodnight

--Lizzie

 

Recent Stuff

ok i dont even want to talk about it really. im all talked out about it.. 

i just cant stand the way people treat other people it ticks me off.. anyway im not even getting into it. im just so sick of it. apparently some people here just dont see Equality everything is always better than someone else or something else. its riculous 

i feel so ready to just get away from the negativity.. 

maybe i'll explain everything better but this is just the basics of a long thinking process thing..

Past Vacation

Ok ok . I've put this off for far to long i might as well tell you all about scotland its just its such a long story i didn't feel like typing it so im kinda copying and pasteing it from the e-mail i wrote my brother tellin him about it,  and then i'll get you all up to date.

'' And Scotland WOW, ok thats some story that is insane, ok so i get there and christina introduces me to some of her friends, anyway, then we went to her moms (btw this is Christmas eve) to see if she would let us stay there because earlier that day her and her mom had a huge fight and her mom kicked her out, christina lives in this youth hostel temporarily, but she got her flat apartment the day i flew in  but it had no furniture and such as in no carpet nothing. and so long story short 3 in the morning of just walking around having hot chocolate in a gas station we decided to call a cab and go to her apartment,after wanting just to stay out all night and in the morning go the the youth hostel thing and sleeping there during The day (she can only have visitors till 10 pm its strange anyway) even though it didn't have anything in it, we were so tired we didn't even care. so her friend grayem gave us a blanket and he paid for our cab because he's nice like that, anyway, so he gave us a blanket but he didn't tell us it was the one his dog sleeps on. so we get to her apartment and turn on the heat and we hear the raidiators going but the heat isn't coming. 

so.. basically we had no heat either, anyway by then its like 4:30, and we put the blanket on the ground because its softer and we bundled up in hoodies and leg warmers anything we could find, and we felt like such hobo's LOL anyway then like not even an hour later at about 6 were both awake again and freezing! we couldn't even sleep becuase it was so cold, and i got up to use the bathroom but she rolls up in the dog bed! so i get back and i try waking her up but she is in a deep sleep so i sat there in a corner rocking back and forth Accepting death. for real. finally after about another hour of that i just stand up and was  like '' CHRISTINA GET UP WE'RE CALLIN A CAB!'' i had to kick her awake lol, anyway so we call a cab on christmas morning 7 am, and go back to the gas station looking like hobos. and haveing some more hot chocolate. lol  merry christmas! lol but thing is by the time we even got to her appartment in the first place it was beyond cryin about or being mad about we just laughed. because if we didn't we'd end up killing eachother lol. anyway then we thought it was over we had like 1 hour asleep ( well she had 2), and so we go around walking again,we wanted breakfast but NOTHING was open because its christmas so we walked around all of east kilbride tryin to find a store, eventually we found one, then we went back to the lindsay (the hostel thing infact im not sure its a hostel but its a place for youth to live if they have no where else.. homeless place or something) anyway that night i slept at her grandma's then her mom let me sleep there a couple nights then i slept one more night at her grandmas and for the rest we slept in her apartment but we got some more blankets from some of her friends, anyway sunday came and we went to church together ( turns out the church was like right next door to her moms basically haha) and we ment the missionaries, and she wanted discussions again so the rest of the time there we were constantly meeting up with the missionaries, and having disscussions sometimes twice a day and she decided she wants to be baptised so that was cool, anyway she was supposed to have been baptised this past saturday, but then she told her grandma like on new years, and her grandma got so mad because she wants her in her religion or something anyway she told the missionaries she needs to think about it now, and then they made an appointment with her the following wednesday which she didn't show up and thats the last i heard. so... i hope they find her and talk to her and things will go better.. 

anyway it was fun, i was glad to be home though to get away from all the drunken scotts seriously around the holidays to.. yeah i had this one drunk guy come up and give me a hug i was like '' there there'' and patted him on the back and kept walking lol it was funny.. anywho, i dont think i want to be in that kind of an atmosphere again it was bad, but it was good for me to see the difference exspecially from meeting the elders and the church stuff in between there was imediate difference between the two which was good for me to see, anwyay i cant get a hold of christina cuz her phone broke when i was there... so that sucks.. but hey yeah enough about that.  long story right ? well there's more little things to it but to long to tell i haven't even wrote a blog or in my journal anout it because its just way to much. anywho, oh and i forgot on christmas eve before we started walking around till 3 am we were in the center of glasgow and the bus kicked up off halfway back cuz of christmas eve and so we tried calling a cab but they weren't going for some reason and so its like midnight and this cop car pulls over she like the dog cop and she only has room for one person after we explained the situation and she was gonna bring one and then pick up the other and bring them etc well there were 3 of us graym christina and i, and well she was like '' oh never mind all of ya just pile in here so christina got in the front and grayem and i sat on the dog cages in the back. LOL yeah eventful as ever that vacation was. im thinkin next year i want a calm christmas lol but in a strange way it was kinda fun. (thats why by the time it was 3 am we could only laugh about everything because so much crap happened already lol) ''

anyway that was basically all the ''exciting'' stuff that happened.. i haven't been able to get ahold of christina after that.. anyway i hope things will work out.. anyway i'll go write another blog entry about everything thats recently been going on..

--Lizzie