Hard To Describe.

Alright this is the closest i can get to describing how i feel only take out the ''alberta'' and canada parts.. its exactly what i wanted to have as the title of my blog.. the feeling the way this song matches my emotions and feelings i've had for a long time, its so weird.. only this type of feeling, i can't put it into words and therefore not into a title either. The parts that Really emphasize and match what i feel are the parts that are in Bold

anyway-- this might seem ridiculous, but what i feel can't be put into words.

It's about being homesick or anything like that at all. I'm already way beyond that stage. 

It just is like a Fact, you just know it. & it's as much a part of me as anything else.

I know im Blessed. but this is just a Feeling, a Feeling that makes me Feel ''home''.. its really strange.. like i said i can't describe it. but these lyrics are a fraction of how i would describe it if i could.

Paul Brandt -Alberta Bound 

( link is at the bottom under the lyrics if you wanna see the video.)

Sign said 40 miles to Canada

My truck tore across Montana
Ian Tyson sang a lonesome lullaby
And so I cranked up the radio
Cause there's just a little more to go
For I'd cross the border at that Sweet Grass sign
I'm Alberta Bound

This piece of heaven that I've found
Rocky Mountains and black fertile ground
Everything I need beneath that big blue sky
Doesn't matter where I go
This place will always be my home
Yeah I've been Alberta Bound for all my life
And I'll be Alberta Bound until I die

It's a pride that's been passed down to me
Deep as coal mines, wide as farmer's fields
Yeah, I've got independence in my veins
Maybe it's my down-home redneck roots
Or these dusty 'ol Alberta boots
But like a Chinook wind keeps coming back again

I'm Alberta Bound

This piece of heaven that I've found
Rocky Mountains and black fertile ground
Everything I need beneath that big blue sky
Doesn't matter where I go
This place will always be my home
Yeah I've been Alberta Bound for all my life
And I'll be Alberta Bound until I die

like i said take out the Alberta's and Canada's and such and you have a fraction of what i feel. 

its home. its more or a full, complete feeling. i dunno.

Anywho -- Next weekend im Goin to Lindys :D it'll be fun then the Week after that is a Valentines Dance in the Hague the after that i have Vacation a week, and i get to go home and go through some more boxes get rid of a lot of stuff and i'll go for a while to Den Bosch and Visit Elvira so it sounds like a pretty fun month coming up. tomorrow if i can get the Courage up i'll go introduce myself in Sacrament meeting. ...not that i haven't been there for 5 months or anything.. sheesh...

ANywho, im gonna  go clean up my room and OH OH!! 

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!

i finished the Book Of Mormon By myself for the first time in my life.. yeah im pretty excited its definetly one of my favorite books ever!!!

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in the meantime wisse brings me a package that was in the mail from sydni :)

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OH MY GOSH!! i love that girl 

i miss her a lot. haha man she cracks me up!! I cant wait to see her again! even though i dunno when that will be!!! 

it's so strange we've been apart for 5 years and we still are in contact im pretty happy :) 

i hope that she knows that she means a lot to me.

oh wow,  ok now,

 i have to go and check up on the boys!

take care

--Love lizzie

  LINK TO PAUL BRANDT VIDEO

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EtMQeBOguA

Things Changing again.

So once again plans and things are changing like my title for instance, its just based on Memories from things anyway, yeah so my future is kinda changing again, I'm deciding what i want to do with it..

im not ready to tell yet though publicly anyway, the ones closest to me know pretty much already sort of what im kinda plannin. anywho if you know ur close to me but dont ''know'' i havent gotten the chance to tell ya yet..

well change is good i guess im excited for it.

the past two days were pretty depressing for me but like i said im not going into that its not even worth going into anymore. im just done with it.   & i know what i want and need to do now.. so there nothing to explain or reason with anymore.

anyway im so excited about getting and education and learning new things,

speaking of new things i am now in 3rd Nephi.. i think the end of alma and the book of helaman have been my favorite up to this point... anyway its all so good i love captain Moroni, and ofcourse Helaman himself.. and his son Nephi.. i dunno its all really good.. i had to laugh when Capt. Moroni Threatened the government HAHA it was great i was so excited and calling Mom and Elvira just laughing about it telling them about it it made me pretty excited hehe, and then like how the government guy what was his name again? something like with a G anyway he was just all calm answerin back to Moroni's threat, just cuz he knows how Moroni was i guess lol anyway it cracked me up :)

what else.. oh yeah i cant wait for summer.. its like its been winter since october. and i know it will last until july.. so its summer or winter.. you pick. i for one pic summer. 

anyway this Weekend im Going home to my Parents, and well the next morning is  the institute day but i'm debating if i want to go or not i mean it sounds fun and up until like a couple hours ago i didn't feel like going because i just didn't feel like being around people all that much (yeah i know man im anti social) but now im startin to think maybe some fun people who actually might not judge me will be there :) so that might could be fun.. anywho, just stayin home with my parents watchin some movies and stuff sounds just as fun if not funner ( i know i know ''more fun'' ) oh well its a quarter over 10 and im gonna go get in bed and get warm and read some more 3rd Nephi.  :)

Goodnight

--Lizzie

 

Recent Stuff

ok i dont even want to talk about it really. im all talked out about it.. 

i just cant stand the way people treat other people it ticks me off.. anyway im not even getting into it. im just so sick of it. apparently some people here just dont see Equality everything is always better than someone else or something else. its riculous 

i feel so ready to just get away from the negativity.. 

maybe i'll explain everything better but this is just the basics of a long thinking process thing..

Past Vacation

Ok ok . I've put this off for far to long i might as well tell you all about scotland its just its such a long story i didn't feel like typing it so im kinda copying and pasteing it from the e-mail i wrote my brother tellin him about it,  and then i'll get you all up to date.

'' And Scotland WOW, ok thats some story that is insane, ok so i get there and christina introduces me to some of her friends, anyway, then we went to her moms (btw this is Christmas eve) to see if she would let us stay there because earlier that day her and her mom had a huge fight and her mom kicked her out, christina lives in this youth hostel temporarily, but she got her flat apartment the day i flew in  but it had no furniture and such as in no carpet nothing. and so long story short 3 in the morning of just walking around having hot chocolate in a gas station we decided to call a cab and go to her apartment,after wanting just to stay out all night and in the morning go the the youth hostel thing and sleeping there during The day (she can only have visitors till 10 pm its strange anyway) even though it didn't have anything in it, we were so tired we didn't even care. so her friend grayem gave us a blanket and he paid for our cab because he's nice like that, anyway, so he gave us a blanket but he didn't tell us it was the one his dog sleeps on. so we get to her apartment and turn on the heat and we hear the raidiators going but the heat isn't coming. 

so.. basically we had no heat either, anyway by then its like 4:30, and we put the blanket on the ground because its softer and we bundled up in hoodies and leg warmers anything we could find, and we felt like such hobo's LOL anyway then like not even an hour later at about 6 were both awake again and freezing! we couldn't even sleep becuase it was so cold, and i got up to use the bathroom but she rolls up in the dog bed! so i get back and i try waking her up but she is in a deep sleep so i sat there in a corner rocking back and forth Accepting death. for real. finally after about another hour of that i just stand up and was  like '' CHRISTINA GET UP WE'RE CALLIN A CAB!'' i had to kick her awake lol, anyway so we call a cab on christmas morning 7 am, and go back to the gas station looking like hobos. and haveing some more hot chocolate. lol  merry christmas! lol but thing is by the time we even got to her appartment in the first place it was beyond cryin about or being mad about we just laughed. because if we didn't we'd end up killing eachother lol. anyway then we thought it was over we had like 1 hour asleep ( well she had 2), and so we go around walking again,we wanted breakfast but NOTHING was open because its christmas so we walked around all of east kilbride tryin to find a store, eventually we found one, then we went back to the lindsay (the hostel thing infact im not sure its a hostel but its a place for youth to live if they have no where else.. homeless place or something) anyway that night i slept at her grandma's then her mom let me sleep there a couple nights then i slept one more night at her grandmas and for the rest we slept in her apartment but we got some more blankets from some of her friends, anyway sunday came and we went to church together ( turns out the church was like right next door to her moms basically haha) and we ment the missionaries, and she wanted discussions again so the rest of the time there we were constantly meeting up with the missionaries, and having disscussions sometimes twice a day and she decided she wants to be baptised so that was cool, anyway she was supposed to have been baptised this past saturday, but then she told her grandma like on new years, and her grandma got so mad because she wants her in her religion or something anyway she told the missionaries she needs to think about it now, and then they made an appointment with her the following wednesday which she didn't show up and thats the last i heard. so... i hope they find her and talk to her and things will go better.. 

anyway it was fun, i was glad to be home though to get away from all the drunken scotts seriously around the holidays to.. yeah i had this one drunk guy come up and give me a hug i was like '' there there'' and patted him on the back and kept walking lol it was funny.. anywho, i dont think i want to be in that kind of an atmosphere again it was bad, but it was good for me to see the difference exspecially from meeting the elders and the church stuff in between there was imediate difference between the two which was good for me to see, anwyay i cant get a hold of christina cuz her phone broke when i was there... so that sucks.. but hey yeah enough about that.  long story right ? well there's more little things to it but to long to tell i haven't even wrote a blog or in my journal anout it because its just way to much. anywho, oh and i forgot on christmas eve before we started walking around till 3 am we were in the center of glasgow and the bus kicked up off halfway back cuz of christmas eve and so we tried calling a cab but they weren't going for some reason and so its like midnight and this cop car pulls over she like the dog cop and she only has room for one person after we explained the situation and she was gonna bring one and then pick up the other and bring them etc well there were 3 of us graym christina and i, and well she was like '' oh never mind all of ya just pile in here so christina got in the front and grayem and i sat on the dog cages in the back. LOL yeah eventful as ever that vacation was. im thinkin next year i want a calm christmas lol but in a strange way it was kinda fun. (thats why by the time it was 3 am we could only laugh about everything because so much crap happened already lol) ''

anyway that was basically all the ''exciting'' stuff that happened.. i haven't been able to get ahold of christina after that.. anyway i hope things will work out.. anyway i'll go write another blog entry about everything thats recently been going on..

--Lizzie