Saturday, May 29, 2010

Happiness lies in the Power & the Love & the Sweet Simplicity of Virtue.

'' But if ye will turn to the Lord with full purpose of Heart, and put your trust in him, and serve him with all diligence of mind, if ye do this he will, according to his own will and pleasure. deliver you out of bondage '' -- Mosiah 7;33

Wow, has my life changed.. my heart has changed so much, it's amazing to me..
so much has been happening as well, well at least with my decisions for life lol..

I can't describe in one blog how i've been feeling or how i've been changing because most of those feelings and changes are personal, but I know that the Savior truly does take and has taken my sins and burdens upon him...I am so grateful for my Savior, that he was willing to die to pay for my mistakes that it would still be possible for me to return to my father, even with imperfections, as long as It give my all, with all the diligence and faith that I have, and put in the Lord. To trust in him in everything, and not lean to my own understanding. Granted I have not made any Mistake that would jeopardize my spiritual standing, but what sort of mistake is not a mistake that needs forgiving?
These past months, years, i've been learning so much, so many differences between trying and absolutely giving it my all. giving my all means putting my trust in Him in All things, in my thoughts, in my actions, my prayers, putting him first before everything else. Even if that means getting up earlier to have personal prayer, or have scripture study before checking my e-mail.. Heavenly Father Truly see's and knows what we need and is willing to and wants to bless us if we follow him. I've lost count of the blessing's i've received these past weeks.. It's amazing how perfectly and brightly the path of life can be if we walk with such things as Trust and Diligence... I'm grateful that I can still ask for help even after I make mistakes.
because I know he is full of love and mercy.
I know he has satisfied the demands of justice through and because of that Love, I know he is always willing to help no matter what the situation might be, as long as I humble myself and have gratitude recognizing that I need his help to overcome my trials. My heart is filled and I desire to give glory to Heavenly Father forever.. he truly is Majestic.

As you all probably know I was supposed to go my mission next year as I had been planning since I was 15... well turns out thats not what the Lord has in mind for me, (yet?)..
I actually-- well to make a really long story short, I feel that I need to move back home to Utah and go to College. so thats what i'm going to do.
At first I'd been feeling really guilty and bummed out about not going on a mission (yet?),
but for a while now, I feel Heavenly Father wants me to get my education in.
I AM excited for this new adventure though, and it will definitely be an adventure, i'm super excited to start the trek of being even more independent, I am craving the challenges that I know it will bring, and the fact that I know I will be working harder, and that is such a great motivation for me! I feel this is a great opportunity for me. :)

I'm so thankful I've been on my own out here in Amsterdam! I'm grateful i've learned to just keep going, and not lose it lol, I mean you can't exactly give up when you're taking care of 3 kids and there's laundry that needs to be done. :) I'm grateful i've had this time moving here and living here in The Netherlands to prepare, and gain a testimony in the past 6 year's that i've been here. I feel so blessed to have had this opportunity and I hope, I'm prayin that I can give back as much as I feel I have been given, while I am still here..I'll be moving back sometime between this year December and February next year.. I haven't yet decided which would be best. Anyway i'll be going to Price, Utah and attending CEU (hopefully, I'm working on my application. if not looks like it'd be UVU or something)

well there are a lot of other topics and things goin on that I would like to get to but i ran outta time, I hope everyone's well, I love you all!

Love Lizzie.