Balance

This morning I woke up and realized--- I need to get a Job as soon as possible.
then the problem, where am I going to find one of those jobs?
now begins the search more than ever, so first thing i'm going to do is go down to the ...place..
i don't remember what it is called, and file for the unemployment thing until I have found one, it shouldn't take to long. but it'll work :)
I would love to find one close by, that would be great.
but we'll see what I come up with, I'll start looking after my appointment with the Dr. on thursday,
      
until then i'm organizing my things and trying to not spread all my stuff throughout the house.
there's going to be some changes, i'm not gonna say what just yet but it's gonna be way better,

this morning pop came in and opened the blinds ... i was still sleeping.... he said it's good for me.. i think i disagree, then he pointed out the fact that from one end of the living room to the other my stuff had been spread.. i didn't notice until he said it, but it's actually true... my stuff is everywhere.
it's not healthy. even the no bake cookies i tried to make last night were still on the counter and all the stuff in the sink. (also they didn't work.. we have no bake poridge.) so I guess the change will be good.

I'm excited for the new changes that's gonna be happenening, of which i'll tell you probably in the next few entrys, but it'll be great :)

Madeleine and I are also going to create a personal health program that we're both going to follow and work on together,

I noticed now that i'm off my mission I need Balance in all things or I can't function. so we've decided to try and build up more balance in the house, starting with ourselves and maybe the influence might be good on everyone else.. dunno we'll see.
we made a blog for it :) it doesn't have anything else on it i'll post it once we get it up working.

being home is a great feeling but at the same time i'm eager to get moving again.
I wrote my companions in the Mission field an e-mail last week i'll include a little bit of it in here it was after my first activity in church since I got back:

'well i went to institute yesterday.. hardly anyone was there... it was not really my thing this time... it was good, i just felt super alone. when you get released, don't fear it, you will be okay like it's hard but you will actually not die. you'll be just fine but the biggest thing is no matter what KEEP THE CONSISTANCY. like ALWAYS pray, always read your scriptures. stick to your schedule becasue satan works his butt off to bring you down, and you feel like you can relax when your home, nope its a lot more effort to apply these things on your own like with your new schedule called ''life'' but it will be okay i will be here for you guys when you get home, just make sure you have a plan ready for when you come home of what your going to do and how your going to do it.

and also when you give your homecoming talk. .( well at least this is how it was for me). I lost ALL speaking and teaching skills. it actually proves to me how much this work was not done by me but actually by the Lord. because I was lost for words. something that never happened on the mission.

but on the upside, seeing your family again is awesome!! seriously being back is good, sleeping in is AWESOME even though i haven't been able to do much of that yet. actually.. at all. but i can imagine it would be awesome ...
and being able to help out at home without feeling like it's chores that need to be done fills that gap of wanting to serve.there is no other service than in the service of the Lord within the Family'

that's kind of how it's going,
it's good but hard work :)
well it's time to go get ready for the day- do laundry- organize my 'bedroom' so it can look like a living room again, and continue personal study. :)

have a great day!

Day 1!!

I'm back from my mission,
     Serving has been one of the best opportunities i've ever been able to take in my life, i'm so grateful I did!
It feels like there is a big chunk of my life which I'd love to put into words but it's not actually possible to do. so for those who want to know how my mission has helped me, changed my life, and my whole perspective of why i'm here, you'll have to place your self in the same or a similar situation, it's more something that has to be felt and experienced to be able to comprehend.
it was just amazing.. absolutely one of the hardest thing's i've ever done, but completely worth it!

And now that i'm back home i'm glad I can help out.
:) and I think i get the best room in the house :)

it's busy being back home, but I like it, it keeps my mind going and my life active, i think if it were the opposite, i wouldn't be able to continue to progress, at least here at home for the time being there is enough things i can do to serve.

BUT, I want to visit my family as soon as I can, which means finding a job to get an income stated again.
I need to see what's going on with my health first, but other than that, i'm already applying for jobs :)
we'll see how it goes, as long as i have something set, or a plan by Christmas :)
also..this song i'm listening to that sister K showed me is pretty amazing. just sayin.. forgot how good music is! .. if anyone knows good clean songs that i've missed i'd love to have them just leave a list or a song title on the comments :)